Sometimes in life you beat the odds and do things you were told you would never be able to do. Whether it's physical or mental, you simply need to prove the naysayers wrong. It gives you a sense of satisfaction to know you overcame the obstacle that was supposedly insurmountable.
Recently I celebrated a joyous moment and was elated. I guess the most high has a way of balancing you out by reminding you "It Was Written". After years of people wondering how do I do it and close family members knowing the physical flaw it appears it has caught up to me, again. I'm not "The Hulk" anymore just David Banner without the gamma rays. My fury and anger of people doubting me can't carry me past what I thought was a "supposed" flaw. It's real now and I have to reserve myself to "ordinary" stuff or the it could be dire.
I've never felt so dejected in my life. I'm simply known more for my physical prowess than anything else. People close to me know I beat the odds and somehow slipped into a career I shouldn't even be in. To quote the P. Diddy "Glorious" song featuring Biggie and Busta Rhymes "It's all fucked up now! What am I'm going to do now?" Exactly what am I'm going to do now?
There's a person I confided in who didn't believe me and that really upset me. Was it disbelief or was it anger due to a falling out? One of my stronger traits is that if I say I have your back, I got it no matter what. I expect the same from anyone I tell that too. I guess people aren't made of finer things anymore?
Will this simply slow me down or show me the back page of my book? Who knows? Im just going to live out what's planned for me.
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